Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Break for Now

Oh hai.

I've found myself at a place where I need to refocus. God is a blur. I am a blur. And I just can't see straight.

So I'm taking the steps I feel necessary to clear my head up a bit. I'm trying to shed off everything that's hindering me right now.

And unfortunately, I think blogging is one of those things.

I just need life to be more simple. So I'm gonna take a break.

Oh I'll miss you. I'll be back probably after lent is over.

I leave you with a prayer I really like. I pray it every morning and night. It's an orthodox prayer. And it speaks my heart. At some points, you just don't know what to say to God. So things like this are nice.

O Lord, I know not what to ask of thee. Thou alone knowest what are my true needs. Thou lovest me more than I myself know how to love. Help me to see my real needs which are concealed from me. I dare not ask either a cross or consolation. I can only wait on thee. My heart is open to thee. Visit and help me, for thy great mercy's sake. Strike me and heal me, cast me down and raise me up. I worship in silence thy holy will and thine inscrutable ways. I offer myself as a sacrifice to thee. You have said, O Lord, "A man's mind plans his ways, but the Lord directs his steps" (Prov. 16.9). Do not forsake me, O Lord, for I have put all my trust in thee. I have no other desire than to fulfill thy will. Teach me how to pray. Pray thou thyself in me. Amen.